It's finally upon us! We're moving to New York! All services will be down (including the site), starting Sunday evening (March 1st, after about 8pm CST), lasting through at least Wednesday morning (March 4th) but possibly later. I've shared more about it in previous posts but the gist is this: We're moving to Brooklyn, New York, to live with Uncle Cr4y, one of our best online friends. He's in the perfect position to take care of us long-term, physically, emotionally, and financially. He's doing a lot to help us, even before we get there, like making our new room sensory friendly and stocking up on our safe foods. He'll bring us into his health insurance long-term and help us stay afloat. He'll help us get on the disability fund as well - apparently it's MUCH easier in New York. Our bestie KD is going to help. On Sunday evening, we plan to have her help pack the car with anything left. The morning after, at roughly 7 AM CST, I'll meet her at her place and we'll hit the road. We already

Last week, on the 17th, our bestie KD took me to a place in downtown Houston called Meow Wolf. I've been caught up in my own stuff, but I'm ready to finally write about it! KD suggested back in December (I think) that she take me to Meow Wolf before we move. Then life happened and we both forgot about it, until mid-February, with the move very soon (March 2nd, in 4 days!). She got us tickets and made sure we'd make it. There was some difficulty getting there, but we made it on time. All I knew in advance is I heard Meow Wolf described as a "liminal space museum". I love liminal spaces, dreamcore, Yume Nikki & fangames, so I had high hopes. I didn't know how it would work exactly, if it would be interactive and I'd get to walk around in the spaces or what. In the end I was pleasantly surprised! We entered through a queue into a small room with other visitors. We only were waiting a moment before someone entered and started briefing everyone. She told us that there's 3 main rules: T

Hi! This one's a break from the usual important life updates. Just some thoughts I've had swimming around in our head for a while that I want to share. Was showing a game to a friend when we saw a scene involving characters' feelings about their heritage. It of course had me wondering about where we came from. So here's some backstory and feelings about our family tree. (CW: discussions of family and forced bonds, emotional abuse, the usual) Extended family Sunny and I have had a complicated relationship with our extended family for as long as we can remember, and it's been pointed out several times to me by friends how unusual it is. There's several moving parts to why we felt and feel the way we do, that I want to put down in writing. Ever since Sunny was little, there's been this kind of... bubble. Sunny was heavily incentivized to close themself off and only associate with their immediate birth family. Their friendships were looked down on by their birth parents, and they were disa

This post comes after this post, concerning my cool new friends Mocha and August. I met them through a sticker with a furry on it in a parking lot, and the butterfly effect led me to these two partners who travel together a lot, and, like me, they're mature and wise. We found we get along really well, and as the two started inviting me to various meetups, I came every single time. With their encouragement, I tested the limits of my bubble, and went outside my comfort zone, and found it's not so bad, especially with friends like them. I genuinely felt like I could tell them anything, and I've even let August drive our car! That's an awesome level of trust to have, especially in new friends. And because of them, I learned a lot, some about our physical health, some about my bias toward negativity, some about travel, and some about the way I cultivate relationships. So, after the life-changing road trip in the previous post, I had a few more visits with them. Specifically, we hung out aro

Today's post is going to be a lot more sentimental and abstract. I want to share with you some experiences that really affected me in a positive way, and maybe they'll do the same for you. I already know I've had a strong impact on a lot of people in my life, but this time, I was the one impacted. The theme I want you to keep in mind is "reaching out", or "expanding your world" so to speak. It all started on August 1st, earlier this year... The sticker I was out shopping, specifically for a new chair, on the belief I held that our current chair in our computer room was causing some of our arm issues (turns out I was wrong). Well, in the parking lot of the Office Depot, there was this light pole, with a bunch of stickers on it. Most were pretty uninteresting - little logos, a meme cat picture, various expressions, a gun sticker, and so on. But one stood out: a sticker with a cute furry design on it, and a QR code. I was so fascinated, I followed the QR code later that day... Sure enough

It's our birthday! We just turned 25 years old. That brings with it some impetus to stop and reflect, and I wanted to share said reflections here, to anyone willing to listen to me ramble. This year has for sure been one of the hardest we've ever had to face. Harder than dropping out of high school, harder than hunting for a treatment for my mysterious pain after that, harder than any online relationship I've entered or exited, good or bad, and harder than slaving over a coding project for years and years. I (now we) have had to deal with an awful lot in the last 365 days. At about this time last year, I was comfortably chilling in my personal discord server, enjoying my time with games and such, although crucially I must point out that my wrists had already been failing for quite some time by then, and I would rather cover up the problem with wrist braces. The biggest worry I had to deal with was little online drama things, like inviting someone back there who'd wronged me and mana

I know what you are thinking, hear me out. Neither of us has made a post like this before but this is too perfect, I just had to share it with the world. So I just rewatched a movie from my childhood (before Eir existed) called Short Circuit. It is an old movie about a military robot created for war being struck by lightning and being brought to life. He meets a nice lady named Stephanie who is dealing with an abusive ex and trying to take care of dozens of animals, and she watches him take in the culture around him and start acting as a real life form, while they both try to evade the military trying to get him back. It is a fun and silly movie, especially if you are the type of nostalgic nerd who enjoys movies like The Truman Show, Groundhog Day, and The Terminator, and movies created around that time. So, during the first half of the movie, we see Number Five take in the world around him. He at first only knows how to say "malfunction, need input" but expands his vocabulary by rapid

Hi all, it's Eir. I've been wanting to write a "normal weblog post" for quite some time, feeling guilty or embarrassed by how many posts on this weblog are just health updates. But I could never come up with a solid topic to write about. I've had this idea floating around that we could write about games again - I have a few thoughts to share on some games, but I also had in mind that Sunny could be the one writing that post. But I'm not sure if Sunny even wants to do that. I might have put that expectation on them by mistake.I think gaming related posts are indeed in the near future, but for now, I want to write a normal weblog post for once. I'm gonna be reflecting on... just how we've been doing, and what our life is like now vs earlier this year, aside from these health things. How this year started My wrists got bad enough to close my Figura commissions last year in October, and that was still in effect. I was relying on my wrist braces heavily, but my main focus was on getting st

Hi all. This post has taken a while to get started, because the sheer size of what I have to type is going to be a huge burden on our shoulders and arms as they are now. So... a while back, I heard we might have EDS from our wrist doctor. At the time, I have to admit I didn't know much about it and didn't do much research on it. Our friend told us a surface-level description of EDS: It's a hypermobility disorder affecting the skin and joints, it might make one able to move their body past its natural limits, and it's generally understood as the "stretchy skin disorder".I didn't think a lot of it applied to us, but some of it certainly did. Things like joint popping and snapping, chronic pain (to some degree), and I later found out EDS can cause very smooth skin, which ironically means us being so pretty is because of this disorder. On the 9th of this month, we were having a usual affair of a day, then Sunny, out of curiosity, decided to research EDS some more, maybe figure out what typ

Hey again, friends. This isn't the super giant health-related post I promised, that'll have to wait - I think this one is more important and personal for now. Today, we tried to go to a certain pain management clinic. We've been there before, it's the guy who acted smug about tai chi. We don't like him, clearly, but I went solely because I wanted to test if getting more of those "trigger point injections" would help our pain somewhat. The first time, it had helped the same day, because the lidocaine numbed all the pain in the shoulders and neck. It had felt amazing, but it only lasted for about 6 hours. He had said the first time around that we'll have to come back about every 2 months for more trigger point injections, to keep ourselves functional with our fibro. We may not trust or like him, but I wondered if he perhaps said this for a reason? Anyway, that's why I had tried to come here today. I entered the lobby and started signing in on the clipboard. While I was writing, the recep